Despite this, I've given in to the risk-taking side of my personality, and some time ago undertook to finish editing it (for better or worse) with a view to letting a couple of my friends read it. It's never been my intention to make this a commercial project, but the risk of my friends not liking it is actually far more disturbing than the idea of having a commercial flop (I've been there, and got the T-shirt...in fact I'm wearing it right now...). Still, I promised to get the darned thing finished and sent to them (electronically, of course), and so I will do so.
Despite the risk element of this micro-venture (or perhaps it's a nano-venture, which somehow sounds far more advanced), I'm almost looking forward to doing the deed, so to speak. One of the things that I've discovered over the last few years is that I have a rather feeble understanding of what people enjoy when it comes to my output. Something into which I've poured my creative spirit, into which I have thrown what I consider to be the peak of my humorous efforts can be met with stony, cruel silence, while a piece that I have by comparison hurled at the screen with barely a care (I'd like to use the word 'nary' here, but I think I've missed my chance) will be received with a surprising amount of enthusiasm. In short: I don't have much clue.
In that spirit, I'll nail my colours to the mast and share this piece of work with people whom I very much like and completely trust, as an experiment, and in the spirit of giving. The fact that I don't feel great about the finished product (I'm almost at the point where it can be unleashed, I think) isn't really the point. What's important to me is that I'll be giving something which has had a great deal of time and effort put into it. I very much hope that it will be something that my friends will enjoy, but even if that's not the case, there is the chance to learn about my writing and about myself.
Wish me luck!